Trust is invaluable

Trust is something invaluable. Something you should never violate. Every time someone violates your trust, your trust in people reduces. It’s hard to trust others when they let you down. But why do they do it? I really don’t understand why people breach the trust of someone. Is it that hard to just be fair, to be a nice person, to care about others feelings? I have given people too many chances, I always remain believing that people change and they learn, but now? I don’t believe it anymore. It has just been too much. I won’t give anymore 3th chances. When you screwed it up, it’s your own fault, you did this to someone. Maybe it sounds selfish or exaggerated, but for me, it’s enough. I’ve been dealing with trust issues whole my life, so now I’m done with it. No more playing, but justice. 

My Christmas tree

Every Christmas tree has a story. It tells a story about the persons who own the tree, how its decorated and why and how much Christmas means for those persons. This year, my dad wanted the Christmas tree from my grandparents’ garden. My mom doesn’t like the tree at all, but it’s standing in our living room. I have to admit, it’s a weird tree and not the regular Christmas tree, but for once, we just decorated it the way we all wanted, not just what my mom wanted. And I have to say, I really like our tree. It was just fun to decorate and I enjoyed the family time we had.  Our tree tells me that we love Christmas and we just want everything to be cozy.  I wish everyone a merry Christmas and I hope you have a nice time. 

Winter flake

Winter finally started. Although the weather over here hasn’t been close to the winter weather, it’s still pretty cold. A white Christmas may not be the case this year, but hopefully snowflakes will be falling dawn just for a moment. Most years I say I don’t like snow and winter, but this year, I just want it to snow. It’s cozy and it just gives me such a nice feeling. I like snow yes, but I don’t like all the mess that comes with it. But this year, I don’t care; I’ll just take the mess that comes with it and enjoy every single snowflake that falls down. I love Christmas and I just want to spend it with everyone. Enjoying the cold, walking hand in hand. 

dear best friend

Everybody needs someone. A person you can tell everything to, you can laugh with, go crazy but also have serious conversations with. When you have such kind of person in life, you are a lucky bird. A best friend defends you even if you are wrong. For me my best friend is one of the most important persons in my life.  So I want to say something.

Dear best friend,

It's been a while since we spoke. We both had a lot to do and things where changing. We might not talk that often anymore, but every time we do, I get a happy feeling. Memories come back about everything we have been trough and that really is a lot. Maybe you remember those crazy days we had, when we were laughing all the time and everybody was looking at us like we were some idiots. We just did the craziest things and we were teasing each other the whole time. Sometimes I just wanted to kick you, because you were annoying me, but I miss you. When I’m looking at pictures of us, I immediately start smiling and I can remember that moment we made the picture. Whenever I feel lonely I look at my wall where I hanged up pictures of us and I feel a little bit less alone. But it’s not the same, we should see each other again. I just want to tell you that, how much I can hate you sometimes, you are my best friend for a reason and we will always be. I’m always going to be there for you, whenever you need me and I will make you proud.

Love,

Your best friend. 

One of our biggest fears: exams

It’s that time of the year again, where everybody is stressing out and eating food and studying, studying, studying. The temperature is getting colder and the sun is on vacation. Rain and snow come and go, it’s faster dark and you just want everything to be cozy. The holidays are within sight. So for now just staying calm and thinking clear. As long as you sleep enough, eat a lot of food and do you best, it will be okay. So success to everyone who has to go through this stuff and afterwards enjoy holidays! 

DINOSAURS

My obsession with dinosaurs.. When I was a child, I played with all kind of toys. I wasn’t really a girly girl. Well, I’m still not a girly girl, but when I was little I used to play with dinosaurs. And now I still love dinosaurs. I just think they are some amazing creatures who lived before humans did. They were huge! And then people feel big on earth. If other people can be obsessed by unicorns I can like dinosaurs. Although my friends think it’s a little bit weird, they still like me. I don’t know what I like so much about dinosaurs. Maybe because they looked so special? I watched shows with dinosaurs and secretly I still do sometimes. Like “The land before time” amazing movies just about friendship actually. And the TV show “Dinosaurs” I still think it’s a genius idea. So nope, I won’t stop liking dinosaurs. That’s my weird obsession.

A girls mind

When my best friend told me what his problem was, I just wanted to jell at the world. It’s just so unfair, that society destroys people. So for his girlfriend, I want to say this, because nobody should play with a girls mind.  (or a boys mind)

People can say things that really hurt. Most of the time they don’t know it hurts others so much. They just see it as a joke, but it can break a person. People are very sensitive for things like that. So whenever you say something bad about them, it will stay in their mind for a very long time. DON’T EVER say something insulting to a person! It kills them inside, maybe it looks like a joke to you, but for them it doesn’t. They start to doubt everything about themselves. They start acting different, start ruining their own bodies and just to be accepted. There are happening such horrible things to people, just because they want to be what others tell them to be. People always want to be better, want to be like others and want to fit in. But there is no need for that, because nobody is perfect. So why would you want to be like someone who is as good as you are? Just be who you want to be and you really shouldn’t care about what others say, because they are not 1 hair better then you are. I learned that whatever others say, it doesn’t matter. Nobody is perfect. There will always be someone who says something bad about you, but! They are not worth to put energy in. The things they say are just words. You should just care about what you think of yourself. The people, who deserve you, like you just the way you are. They are proud of who you are becoming, they care about you in any way. They are the ones, who will stand up for you and those people, they are important to you. And that’s all you need, those people who care about you, because you are who you are. 

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Stupid mononucleosis

About 2 months ago I started feeling sick. I felt awful. Because I normally never am really sick, I was hoping it would just be the flu or a bad cold, but nope that wasn’t the case. The doctor told me it was mononucleosis. I knew what it was, but I was scared. I wanted to sleep the whole time, didn’t want to eat ANYTHING and if you know me, I’m a real eater. I LOVE food, so for me it was weird of course. So I stayed at home, slept a lot and didn’t eat. After a couple days I started to leave my room and watch TV in the living room. After 1 week, I just wanted to go back to school.. I missed everyone, felt alone, just wanted to be healthy again. But of course I wasn’t ready yet to go back. So I stayed at home and was asking friends at school for school stuff so I had something to do and I wouldn’t be that far behind when I came back. I actually felt really miserable. Another 2 weeks went by and I couldn’t bare it anymore. My parents kept saying I wasn’t healthy enough and that it would only make it worse. So after 4 weeks I finally went back to school. I was so happy! Everyone else wanted it to be vacation and I just wanted to go back to school. My parents still weren’t that shure about me going back to school, but I did and it wasn’t just like before, but know, it has been 3 weeks and I’m feeling great. Even when the doctor said it was very fast going back. But I only fell down ones and know I think it’s almost over. So now I’m just doing whatever I can and we will see, I might be better in a week. ;) 

You are not a robot

Last week I was watching a video from Sam Pepper. He went to a concert of Hoodie Allen. So I looked him up and I fell in love with the music! Hoodie Allen has some really good songs and I have been listening to them ever since. It feels like the songs really take me in to the story and they give me a certain feeling, like I have been through the things in the song. My favorite song is probably You are not a robot. I really like this song, the lyrics are so true. The song is about being yourself and not being what everyone else wants you to be. Well I can completely relate to that. It’s hard to be accepted by everyone and being what everyone else wants you to be. But! You don’t have to. You just have to be who you want to be and nobody else can say you what to do. It’s your life and you should enjoy it. So stop trying being what others want you to be, just be who you are. Believe me, when you finally have accepted yourself, gives it you the greatest feeling. :)

What would you do - Bastille

What would you do – Bastille

When you listen to this song, it’s like your problems become pathetic, like they aren’t real problems.  While listening I was thinking about people who don’t get such chances as I do and I just want to do something for them. I know it’s impossible to do well for everybody, but we can all make someone smile. There we should start, do something for another without expecting something back. Think about their position and ask yourself this question: What would you do?

Don't let me down

Some people have that great luck that all the people they love, are still around, others don’t. It’s hard, it really is hard. There could be so many reasons why they are not around, but most of the time it’s their chose… If they don’t want to put energy in you.. Try to forget about them. I know it’s definitely not easy, but think about all the other people who love you… They think you’re worth it and they are right! You are worth loving, and they like you the way you are… 

Autumn is back

Leaves get beautiful colors and are falling down. It’s getting colder and the last summer sun is shining. Autumn is back. I like this time of the year. It’s getting cozy and everything looks beautiful again. I like walking and thinking about things, but when it’s autumn, I love it even more. Just walking, breathing fresh air and looking around me. At this time of the year I can think the best about small things or big things. Just the wind blowing through my hair, telling me what to do.. Don’t go away that soon autumn. I need you. 

Hi, I love you!

Hi tiger,

We have known each other for months, however it seems like ages. You know me like the best and I’m always happily surprised when you know those things about me. You make me smile and feel like the happiest person on earth. Every time you look at me, you make me shine. Every time you kiss me the butterflies in my stomach go crazy and my body just wants you. Just you. Whenever I see you smile, I fall in love over and over again. You are one of the only persons who get me, who understands me and I understand you. I just wanted to tell you that you mean the world to me. You are everything I need and ever want. I just love you.. And I will always do.

Me

The softy in me

Most people think I’m hard and that I can take a lot. They are surprised of my softer side. I don’t show it that much, but I am a real softy. And there is nothing wrong about it. : ) when I’m watching a sad movie, I’ll be the first one whose tears will be rolling down my cheeks. I have a big hart for things like that. My soft spot. I find it harder to watch a kid cry then when I see somebody being killed. I can’t watch the news when they are talking about war and people who die for nothing. Just because I feel useless. I can’t do anything to help them and it’s just not fair. I have a good life, but I can’t help them. It breaks me. Yes I’m a softy, but I will do my best to do well for this world. It needs every small good thing to become a better place. 

Why don't they understand?

Why don’t parents understand us? Why everything has to be so different for them, like they are looking through different glasses. What is wrong with being a teenager and enjoying vacation? I know that the world doesn’t turn around me, but can I just spend some time as a teen? Okay, yes we are not like how they ware as teenager, but why blame us? It’s not our fault! So just accept it and don’t judge us for it. I’m a teenager from this century, but I understand things aren’t great. That technology takes us over and we just let it be. Yes I know! But just give me a break. Just give us a break! It’s not our fault, but we do our best to be good. 

Teachers

Teachers are another species. They just don’t get students. Teens are constantly dragging about them, but what would we be without teachers? Living with a teacher is hard and frustrating, but not like you’ll die from it. They are people too. When you are a good student, you will have a great teacher, as long as you show some interest in them. There will always be some teachers who you would want to kill, but think about the other teachers. It’s true that they only care for their matter and they plan things too much at one time. We need space and spare time. I don’t think they will change, but smile and ask for another date. Maybe they won’t do that, but they are still human and will do what you ask. Just show some respect.

Mondays

Mondays are awful. The end of the weekend just passed by and a new week is coming you are lazy, tired and just want it to be weekend again. In class, nobody pays attention. Everybody is thinking about sleeping and doing nothing. Monday goes by and the same every day. Now it’s already Friday and you are happy because the weekend is coming. Actually those other days went by in a fast time. As long as you have something to do, you don’t feel it. Like today. My day went by so quickly.. Like I’ve missed parts of it. But maybe that’s because I had fun and the time wasn’t standing still for once..

I'd come for you

I don’t tell this to many people, because I find it hard to choose, but I kind of made a decision. My ultimate favorite song ever is I’d come for you from Nickelback. Most of the time this song makes me wants to cry. I think it’s so beautiful! The lyrics are just wonderful and touching. Why? If you know you have someone like that in your life, you can say you are the luckiest person on earth. Just knowing that you can always go to that person is such a relieve. That person is one of the most important persons in your life. They are there for you no matter what. It makes you feel special, but I hope you are that kind of person for someone else too. Someone you really care about. It can be family, boy/girlfriend … but a friend too. Be there for each other and make each other the happiest person alive. 
I'd come for you - Nickelback



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuOHKXfaaDk

Yes I cried

There could be so many reasons for crying. For every time you cry, there is a story. Crying is a relief. Letting everything go for a moment. When you cry, you can just think about the reason and that’s a good thing. Today I cried. It was a relief for me, finally everything could go. I was angry, disappointed, sad… I just couldn’t take it anymore. Its normal people break down. It’s nothing to be ashamed off. I personally think you should cry sometimes. Because it clears your mind and you have a moment to yourself. So yes, I cried, and I don’t regret it… 

A new school

Going to a new school is for everybody a different experience. Some like it others don’t want to. For me it’s double. I really wanted to switch schools, but leaving everything behind is kind of hard. The things you were used too aren’t there anymore. There is a lot of change, but change is good. A fresh start is needed sometimes. As long as you are yourself and do your best, everything will be all right. I’m not saying you will fit in from the very first moment, but there is time enough. Just be you and feel free. 

Imagine

Imagine … I just love this word. It is like the bridge between reality and fantasy. Like it’s impossible, but maybe, one day it will come true. Imagine a world you could create yourself. What would live, grow… My imaginary world is a beautiful forest with no human beings, just animals and plants, like nature. All kind of fantasy characters live there and the world is just peace. Nothing ruining something else. No human who destroys everything he sees. Yeah, imagine is a beautiful word to subscribe what something could be, the perfect situation, so imagine world without humanity. World would be beautiful and a small fairy is dancing in peace …

Imagine – John Lennon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRhq-yO1KN8

Being me ...

A friend of me asked me a question.  A question about me personally. I couldn’t really answer it, because I’m not that self-assured. He said: “How could you not be proud of yourself? You are the only person in the whole world like you are. Everybody is unique.” I started thinking and asked him how he stands in life. He answered me that he just believed in himself and he just does what he wants to do. He doesn’t care about what others think, he wants to be himself and is proud of whom he is. I started to tell him my story and why I’m not that proud of myself and he said: “I know how that is, believe me, I’ve been through that too, but you are a super girl and you can be yourself with me. Don’t be afraid of who you are, nobody is perfect and fake people have the most ugly personality you could imagine.  I was so relieved and happy when he said that. I decided to look at life the same as he does. Nothing can stop me from following my dreams and nobody has the right to think he is better than I am. I’m proud of who I am, what I’ll become and what I did. Life is just too short to live in the shadows of others. 

Forgetting about you

A while ago I met a person, who I really like. We had a great time together, but I was scared. Scared of falling in love. After some time I decided that if I did fall in love, I just should go for it. Only one problem: I didn’t know what I was feeling exactly. It was a long struggle. Then I finally decided that I’d give that person a chance, but he didn’t take it. It’s confusing and annoying. I still don’t know what he wants and it’s driving me crazy. I said to myself: you’re still not shore about your own feelings, so just forget about him. That’s what I’m trying to do, but it’s not that easy.

What I want to say is whenever you hesitate, you should think about the reason you are hesitating. If you are still not shore, then forget about it. There is so much more in life and you’ll be fine :) 

Smile and wave :)

Everybody knows these days when you aren’t in a good mood and everything annoys you. But the worst is when there are some people who talk to you, you really don’t like and the voice in your head is screaming: “Bitch please! Leave me!!!” You just want to walk away screaming things. There is nothing wrong with wanting it, but that could cause some big fights. The best thing to do? I’ll tell you! Just try to ignore them as much as possible. Think about the penguins of Madagascar: “Smile and wave!” Just do it and walk away. They will get it …

Memorie lane

Yesterday, I was cleaning up my closet and I found a box. It was filled with stuff from when I was younger. Memories came back and I was thinking about that time when you are playing the whole time and we didn’t think about anything. As a child I was addicted to the Lion King. Actually every Disney movie was playing on our television. But princesses weren’t really my thing. My most favorite animated movie like the classic Disney movies, is definitely Anastasia. Oh I love that movie and why? Just because the story is so beautiful. I was going feather trough the stuff and I found a picture of me and my favorite stuffed animal. I’m still having him and I don’t think I will ever throw him away.  I remember that he had a typical smell of home and when I wasn’t at home, he was out with me. Memories flashed by and the smile on my face was growing.

Memories are very important even the bad ones. They have their reason to be there and you should never forget them. Things you are regretting now will be laughed about in the future. Tell others you memories and let them enjoy together with you.

Change of plans

My school results weren’t that great. Plans had to be changed. People were mad, sad, couldn’t believe it, but it’s true. I screwed up my year and now I’ll have to pay for it. It’s my own damn fault. But still, I don’t regret this unforgettable year. I opened up; I met new/awesome people, made real friends, learned, but most important: I became myself. There are things I regret, but it is one year. One year of unforgettable memories. I get it that my parents are really disappointed, because if I had done just a little bit more, there wouldn’t be a problem. But that’s how it is. I didn’t do anything bad. I’m not a criminal, but I’m not perfect and I don’t want to pretend to be perfect. So whenever I can I’m trying to be happy about the situation, but at this point it’s hard. Yes I have a punishment and I really wanted to cry about it, start screaming and run away, but that would make it a lot worse.  Now I’m on vacation and I’m going to try to be a good daughter. I don’t want to think about my punishment and I just want to enjoy vacation. Just not thinking about all my problems. Maybe when I’m back my parents will change their minds, hopefully. For now? Only one thing: vacation...

What about God?

Religion is a strong thing in a human life. There are many different religions but actually they are all the same: believe in it and you’re a good person. I’m definitely not judging people who believe. I admire them for that, but me? I grew up without religion. Am I screwed up for that? No! Everybody has his own opinion and thinks different. As long as we respect others we can live in peace. I don’t believe in God, but I’m definitely not saying you shouldn’t! My opinion? Believe whatever you want! As long as you put strength out of it, it’s good. : ) I believe in science and in peace. It might seem a little too positive, but I think that if everyone cared about others and shared, earth should be a much better place. Believe in yourself and others will believe in you :) share your thoughts and you are helping the world to become a better place.

Peace

Ssssuuuummmmmmeeeerrrrr!!!

Yes, finally!! It’s summer!

It has been a hard year and the weather over here hasn’t been that great the last months. Now school is done and summer is finally here :) Partying, swimming, enjoying the sun, rest … It’s a good thing. No stress or work, just sleeping and enjoying. Even if your finals weren’t great or you had a hard time, summer is here to heel your wounds. Don’t think about what if, should I … JUST DO IT! Take some time for yourself and feel free. Feel like a bird. Put on some party music and dance! Dance and sing. Just be crazy with friends and do things you never did before. : ) Have a great summer and don’t forget to enjoy it!!

My summer jam : ) 

Yes, no, maybe

Making decisions is awful. If you are not sure, you are thinking about it the whole time. Me, I’m pretty bad at making a decision. Why? I’m scared, scared of making mistakes. But I learned that making mistakes is a part of growing up and learning how to be you. If I can give you one tip about making decisions: Think about what the consequences will be and what you think is right. Don’t listen to other people! You might regret it. Just think about how your life would be if you made that decision. Don’t worry about making mistakes; they are there to be forgiven and forgotten. 

Life is a movie

Your life is like a movie you are directing yourself. You are the one choosing which way to go and what happens. Who will be a part of the movie or which characters will have a part? That’s all up to you. There are things that happen, but you don’t want them to happen. That’s just how life goes. You can make your own path, but there will be struggle. Don’t forget that you chose your way of life and nothing should stop that. If you really want something, you’ll get there. Believe in yourself and others will believe you too. Don’t give up and stay strong, not for me, but for yourself!

Straight edge?

Last week, I went to the birthday party of a friend. Me being the only one who didn't drink alcohol wasn't new for me. But for others it was ...
Why don't you drink a beer?
Me: Because I don't like it.
But everyone does it, so just do it.
Me: Well, that's just stupid, why would you drink a beer if everyone else did? Then you're just following the rest. I don't drink because I don't like it and I think you can make a lot of fun without.
Then what do you drink?
Me: Just water, I don't drink soda because I don't like it either.
A friend of me said: Wow! So you don't drink?
Me: I don't drink, smoke or do drugs and I don't care about what other people say about that. Like my dad would say: I'm proud about it. ;)
She: OMG! You are straight edge! That's so cool! One of my best friends is straight edge too and she's AWESOME! You guys should be friends!
And I was thinking: I'm I straight edge?? I don't know if this counts or what it means in total.

So I looked it up and I know for sure I'm definitaly not straight edge! Because I'm not a vegetarian or vegan. I kind of like hardcore, but not as much as a real straight edger does. And I don't like punk. I'm not wearing crosses or anything extreme. I'm just a person who has an opinion and I'm not afraid to tell it. I think you should speak out and you should do what you think is right. If you like drinking, that's ok! I'm not going to like you less. Some of my closest friends drink too, some of them a lot, others not that much, but they still are my friends and they respect my opinion.Just say no if when you don’t want to do something, don’t think: “They are going to think I’m boring, stupid, a baby, …” Because when you say you don’t want to, they will think: “Hey, she/he does whatever she/he wants and she/he doesn’t care about what others think, it’s smart! Why shouldn’t I just do that too?”

I’m just proud to say I’m not following the rest, but that I have my own opinion. And nobody has the right to take that away from me!

Epic!!!

A while ago, I went to the cinema. Then I saw the trailer from the animated movie Epic. I was so excited! I really want to go see it. It looks awesome! Normally the movie is for younger children, but I’m going to use every excuse to see it. I just fell in love with the slug and the snail!! Mub & Grub!! They are amazing! :D I don’t care about what people are going to say when they know I’m crazy about them, because the movie is so special. I really admire people who can make such movies. That’s one of my dreams: to make awesome movies like that.

Definitely go watch it!! I think I might go more than once until I’m having the movie at home …

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xu3JLXfuwQ

See yaaa later alligator!!!

Bill haley and comets – see you later alligator

See you later alligator!

After a while crocodile!

When I read one of the books from the True blood series, I sang this song the whole day.  But that is a long time ago. Yesterday, a friend said: See you later! And I immediately started to scream the words: See you later alligator!! But she didn’t reply, another friend of me was like: Euhm, after a while crocodile? We all started to laugh and I’ve been using it every time I say goodbye. It’s just funny when people reply although most people think I’m weird when I say it, but who cares? It’s different and funny, so I say this: Use it too! Give Bill Haley’s song a second life, he will be grateful ;) 

Back in time

What would you change if you could go back in time? Well I don’t really want to go back in time, because there are things I would’ve done differently. But would I still be the same person as I’m now? Or would those things make me another person? At this moment I’m pretty happy with who I am. I still don’t know what to do with my life, but I have some dreams. Dreams, and I’ll try to make them come true. So if I would go back in time I might have other dreams or just be another person than I’m today. I’m still young, so maybe one day I’ll say: “If I could go back …” but hopefully I won’t regret my decisions. I know that I’ll learn from my mistakes, so I’ll become who I want to become.

Bastille - Flaws

A couple days ago, I heard for the first about this band. I looked them up and I think I’ve been listening to this song for the rest of the day. There songs are great. I really like them. So I started to listen to them the whole time and I kind of made my best friend go crazy. Oops! Haha, he has been listening too and we are both addicted. Out of all their songs, this is my favorite. It just makes me smile and dance. The craziest things come into my mind, but it’s just inspiring and easeful. When I close my eyes I just see me and my best friends running around on the grass and jumping on a trampoline. We are just having fun and moving on the music. Laughing and shouting the whole time, just enjoying every moment we spend together. We just don’t care about our flaws …

Having a cold

2 weeks ago I worked with children a lot. My category was toddlers, so I was pretty busy. Everyday playing with them, dressing up as an animal to entertain them and standing for hours in the cold wind to watch them while they are playing. We needed to make a program every evening for the next day. I have to say it was hard, but the best time of my life. Seeing those happy kids just makes you happy. I had amazing co-animators and we were a great group. My best friends where there too and we had an awesome week. But it was hard. Almost no sleep, watching them all the time, entertain them, screaming, … The day after that week my voice was literally gone. I could just say words with a weird noise and I started to cough the hole time. So yeah, I became sick. All the kids had had the chance on making me sick and they took it ;) . I had a cold! Jup, and that for about 10 days. So I was sick for the rest of my vacation. Not really what I hoped for, but yeah. Now the rest of my family is getting sick , but for me it’s almost over. I hope I will get better soon, because I don’t want to have a cold when the weather is turning great.