Cuddling

Everybody has those moments when you just need a hug. Just a hug form a random person, or from the once you need the most. Me being not that kind of a huggable person could use a hug sometimes. Normally I don’t like personal contact that much, well not from strangers. People close to me can hug me anytime they want, but I will never ask for a hug. Most of the time I don’t tell people how I feel. I just pretend to be ok and try to not show others how I really feel. Maybe that’s my problem, I should just ask for a hug sometimes, than I might feel better. But whenever I see someone who needs a hug, I’ll give it, although I don’t like personal contact that much with strangers, a hug can change a person and I will just do it. 

The disappointment

Probably everybody has those times that everything goes wrong. All the things you wanted to do didn’t happen or when you wanted to see people, it didn’t go through. Well, I feel awful then, because I look forward to things and I hope too much that it will happen, but okay, it makes you hard. Then you learn to have a good time even when it’s not going by plan. I’m the kind of person who always wants to plan everything so I can do well for everyone. Half the time I plan, it goes wrong. There is always something. Of course it’s really annoying and I really hate when it happens, but afterwards I don’t want to feel sad for myself. So why wouldn’t you do something else? Even when it’s just cleaning your room or doing some homework that has to be hand in 4 weeks later. Then you have done something useful and can you enjoy the time you have left because you already did those things. Nobody can ruin you day, you just need to see that yourself. 

New me

It is time to start a new chapter in my life. New me; new life; just starting my life. It wasn’t an easy time, but now I’m stronger than before and that’s all I need to be. Love hurts, people are awful, but you shouldn’t care about what others say. Just because they are insecure about themselves, you don’t have to be. There is no reason for it. Just accept the way you are and make the best out of life. Yes it is a VERY COMMEN QUOTE, but it’s true: you only live once. SO WHY SCREW IT UP?? Just don’t!! I made a click and now I’m seeing everything different. I’m just going to stay positive and try to make the best out of everything. When it’s not going well, just remember the times it was amazing and know those times come back, but only when you let them to. You really should just do whatever you think is right and learn from your faults. Don’t ever miss a chance just because you had doubts. Just go for it! It might be your only chance! From now on, I’m going to be a happy person, because I don’t want to miss out anything anymore. I don’t feel like I have lived, so before it is going to be too late, I will have lived!! So yeah, here and now I’m going to spread my wings and fly; flying to see the world. 

Like me

Like me - Jake Miller

I'm special

Bababababa
There is no one like me
Th-th-there is no one like me, like me
Ma-ma-manners take a second look and you'll see
There is no one like me
There is no one like me, like me

This song makes me think of a campfire, where everybody is laughing and having a great time. It just makes you dance and sing along. The lyrics are just the truth. Live is just like that. It just makes me want to shout it out, that I’m not perfect, but I’m just myself and that is the best I can be. There is just no one like me and I’m proud of it. That’s what this song is about. So now whenever I feel down, I just listen to this song and I feel better, because I’m not the only one whit this story. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxabdQDu4Ak

Letting go

Sometimes you love someone with whole your hart and then at one point it just stops. You can’t believe it, you loved that person so much. Love is special and it gives you beautiful memories. Maybe you say: I don’t ever want to love again, because you don’t want that pain again. That’s wrong. Love hurts, I know, but it’s what we need. We need love to be true, so we feel amazing. Remember love never stops. It will just faith away a little bit, but NEVER stop. That’s why you should love, because you made a difference in somebodies life. You meant something for them. But sometimes it’s better to let go. Although it hurts, letting go is the best you can do. Never give up on yourself, never give up on others, keep believing in dreams and love. Look at that person and smile. Think about the amazing things you did together, how beautiful your love was. One day you will feel that again and then it can only become better. You learn from your faults and you will make better choices. When you let go, you let go of that person, not of the memories and that’s what you should cherish. Love will come back, if you give it the chance. And it will be even better than before, because you know what love means.

Feeling worthless

Sometimes I just can’t take it all anymore. Everything is going wrong and the pressure is too big. It’s like I can’t do anything right for anyone and everything is my fault. I do my best, seriously, but people should not expect so much. Most of them think I can handle everything and my life is perfect, well it’s definitely NOT. It is so hard to not be the biggest disappointment in the family; to be that friend everybody counts on and nobody thinks about how I feel about something. No. You should not just assume I’m doing everything you say, going everywhere just so you are happy, because you don’t care about how I feel. You really shouldn’t think that I’m always ready to be there for you when you need me, because you are never there when I need you. I’m a person too. I do have feelings, I do need help and I do need you. Yes, maybe I do seem to have everything great and no I do not show my feelings that quickly, but is it so hard to just ask me if I’m doing ok? Like I’m always asking you? I probably should show my feelings more, but I don’t want to, because whenever I do people react weird. Like they see something that they never expected or they don’t know what to do about, but why don’t you just try? You know, every little thing helps. You might think it doesn’t, but you at least tried. That’s what it’s all about. Just show that you do care, that you do want to know how someone feels. I know, I have a good life, I have everything I need and I actually shouldn’t complain. I am very grateful for everything I have and what I’ve reached so far. Yes, there are people who have it a lot worse then I will ever get, but do know, nobody is perfect; nothing is and it just takes its toll sometimes. If everybody just would be happy with whatever they have and did care about others a little bit more, the world wouldn’t be the way it is now, it would be more peaceful and love would be more important than your selfish self. 

New year? Hell yeah!

And here we are. 2014 started and we left 2013 behind. It was a very powerful year for me. With a lot of ups and downs, but although I met the best people in the world, became myself, fell in love, felt lucky and made memories for the rest of my life. I’m happy I have all those things, I’m a lucky person and I think I deserve it too, it hasn’t been easy at all, working hard, being disappointed, lost people, problems came from everywhere. I’m glad 2013 ended, 2014 can only become better, because when you stay strong and believe in yourself others will too and with your friends/family you can overcome everything. Everybody has those New Year resolutions, but nobody sticks to it, like every year. So what I want to do in 2014? I want to be good for others, have a lot of fun and over win my fears. I want to live and nobody can stop me from doing that, because I believe I can do it and I will never give up my dreams.